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Gift
One step. Another step. The large man approaches. As the man approaches, pale moonlight streams in from the entrance, gently illuminating the cattle shed. The shadow at the man’s feet is clear, and it stretches all the way to my feet. The sound of footsteps on gravel has disappeared.
My vision is almost covered by the black man’s silhouette. www.ihavesinnedtranslation.com
Am I going to die?
I have no lingering attachment in the world. And I had no intention of being reborn.
But.
At that time, I had some expectations.
My previous life was truly shitty.
Childhood. I was always hungry, even though it’s not like we didn’t have any money. I held my breath each time I heard the sound of the door open and close from downstairs.
Student days. I hardly had any friends. As for a girlfriend, it was pie in the sky. I knew a lot of classmates as acquaintances but the people who mattered most to them were always someone other than me.
Since I started entering society....at first I endured it and worked in a restaurant. But to me, the place called the ‘kitchen’ was something that awakened bitter memories in my childhood days. I knew it will bring me disadvantage in many ways, but I worked at a regular company. However, it was a black company.
Unable to endure the repeatedly exhausting work, I became a temporary worker. My situation was getting worse, and I was driven into a corner. Meanwhile, both of my parents collapsed one after the other, I took care of everything alone and in place of my two brothers, one a debt addict, one a criminal.
I’ve always been dreaming the whole time. No matter how painful or sad I felt, I was dreaming that someday, there wouldn’t be someone reaching out to me? For that reason, I kept clenching this hand and endured it all.
That’s right.....within these hands I’m sure there are gold dust. It might be literally just a handful and truly insignificant. But, if I could meet someone who would smile at me. I would give it all to them without hesitation. This so-called treasure might actually be something unsightly, but even so.
I remembered the time I saw the old pocket watch at the flea market. Right, it’s 『The Gift Of The Magi』. I don’t want to give up something important to me. If someday I could find a connection that makes me want to throw away the things important to me.
My wish quickly scattered away. Nearly 40 years of my life turned to nothing.
Enough. I’ve had enough of everything. I want to put an end to it all. I suffer bercause I had this ‘connection’. So I’d rather be alone forever. www.ihavesinnedtranslation.com
And I felt something from deep inside my heart 「maybe」 the moment I met that black-haired man introducing himself as a god. I was too unlucky in my previous life. But it won’t be like that the next time. I’ll try my best this time, and let’s not make another stupid mistake since I have the memories of my previous life.
But it was not as much as expected. There was no point in even trying after all. My fate had already been decided. For what reason did I live until now, even to the point of eating cockroaches? Is it to die like this?
……the man in front of me calmly raised his hatchet. My eyes opened wide in an instant.
At that moment, I rolled to the side. The tip of the blade slammed down to the place where my neck used to be.
I’m a fool. Even after things turned out this way, I still don’t want to die? Even though my limbs are numb and I can’t even stand up.
I crawled to the corner of the cattle shed, a little bit away from the entrance. Just doing that makes me out of breath. I don’t have any particular thoughts. I looked in front of me while resting the back of my head against the wooden wall.
The man’s black silhouette approaches and then fades into darkness. In this shed’s corner, where the light of the moon doesn’t reach. There is a smell of old hay. My own lukewarm breath mixes in with it. The feeling of cold earth.
What did I wish for? At the time when I jumped down to this world, what kind of thoughts did I have?
Did I want a life surrounded by my family’s love and good friends?
No.
……I want to cut them all.
I want to cut neither the wagon wheel nor the worn-out rope.
『I want to cut off everything, all that entangles me and obstructs my freedom』
My bitch mother. My alcoholic, lazy, and thuggish stepfather. This poor Linga village. Everything, all of it. And the man in front of me, too.
I want to cut them into shreds.
Into shreds.
「Uh.....!?」
For an instant, my vision is dyed bright red.
My heart is pounding violently, and I can’t stop panting. Sweat pours out from all over my body. It’s as if my body is being shaken violently. www.ihavesinnedtranslation.com
「Wha.....t.....just....」
I nervously open my eyes after having the illusion of a roaring sound reverberating in my head.
That man was just one step away, approaching me. In the darkness, only his two eyes shone brightly.
But, what I saw wasn’t just that.
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Punos Kundum (26)
・Material Human Form
（Rank 5, Male, 26 years old）
・Skill Fores Language Level 5
・Skill Farming Level 5
・Skill Cooking Level 1
・Skill Sewing Level 1
Empty（22）
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When I focused on the man, I felt like I could faintly see something like letters.
What was that just now?
Is this, this person’s personal information? But, even if I could see something like that what meaning does it have?
The man.....no, ……this man named Punos.....he slowly raised the hatchet one more. This time, there are no other places to run to.
I reflexively pushed out my hand in the face of impending death. In the space where there is nothing. Towards the letters that appeared before the man.
For an instant, an image filled my mind–something condensing, something spinning around intensely.
Following that, I felt something snap.
At that moment, a mysterious feeling of discomfort and fear, like suddenly losing the ground beneath me and falling, tightened around my chest.
It felt like time had stopped. The bloodlust that had filled the cattle shed until just a moment ago vanished. Not only the bloodlust, even the man’s figure is nowhere to be seen.
*kon*, a slightly dull, metallic sound echoes. A little later, a light *pasha* sound followed after. Looking at the source of sound, I saw the sharpened hatchet lying there. Dark clothes were scattered next to it.
What?
The man.....vanished?
That’s not it.
A rainbow colored mist is floating at the space where the man was standing earlier. It’s the same color as oil in a water surface. The light flickers unsteadily. But, it was only for a short time.
Before long, it noticeably swayed and lost its shape completely, and dispersed.
What? That man, he suddenly disappeared? Just his body? www.ihavesinnedtranslation.com
No.
No....no way.
I raised my trembling hand before my eyes.
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（Self） （2）
・Ultimate Ability
Piercing Hand
・Material Human Form
（Rank 6, Male, 2 years old Active）
・Material Human Form
（Rank 5, Male, 26 years old）
Empty（0）
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What, is this?
What is this, what is this??
This incomprehensible phenomenon, could it be that the cause was this 「Piercing Hand」?
Piercing……it means to pierce, or stab? But, Hand. A hand that is not shaped in a way to stab anything. I wonder what the image was that spins around intensely then?
Also, I don’t really understand it, but what is this 「Empty」 here?
In any case, there are many huge differences between the man earlier with me. Above all, for some reason, I have two things called ‘Material’.
The first one is rank 6 and the other one is rank 5, the same as the man from earlier.....
That means.
This rank 5 Material is..
I thought ‘No way’, but I concentrated on my own hand once more. The letters started to appear. I reach out my hand, as though trying to touch the letters. This time, I don’t do anything reckless like grabbing them. I tried to gently replace the position of the first Material to the second position.
At that moment, I lost my balance and fell face down on the ground.
「……pehh」
I got on all fours while spitting out the sand in my mouth. My limbs are moving. And with a strength I never had before. My viewpoint is high. Then I stand up. My line of sight is around the same height as the entrance.
I look around me. I was no longer pressed against the wall. Even when I looked at the place where I should have been before, there was no one there. But, there were some dirty children's clothes over there. And at my feet, I’m stepping on the dark-colored clothes the man was wearing just moments before.
As I was about to rush out the door, I noticed the cold. I hurriedly put on the clothes at my feet. I also pick up the hatchet and tuck it into my waist belt.
Walking with unsteady steps, I step out of the cattle shed. Next to the cattle shed are a whetstone that had been used before and a water jug. Fortunately, the light from the moon is bright. I lightly lean over the water jug.
Reflected on the water surface, is the face of the man who had just tried to kill me. www.ihavesinnedtranslation.com
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